WIAW- Unfavorable Habits

by tessa8m on March 14, 2012

in What I Ate Wednesday


I know the “blog rules’ (whatever the heck that means) we aren’t supposed to talk about the weather, as it’s an overused backdrop for a topic. But oh well. I mean goodness this week has been remarkably gorgeous so far, and it only going to get better! I even busted out the flip flops on Monday, read outside when I could, and am simply enjoying the spring-like weather as much as possible.

This week has also been a “breath of fresh air” in terms of my mood. Well, I have been in a rather good one these past few days and what a nice change that is. In all honesty, that last few weeks have been rough and this “new and improved” mood is a welcome change. You had better believe I am embracing the feelings as much as I can :)

Besides the influence of the lovely weather, my research is going well, I am keeping up with my work, I have been feeling slightly less fatigued lately, and as a result enjoyed a rather fabulous and refreshing run on Monday. I am still feeling the high... basking in it as a matter of fact.

And most importantly, Spring Break starts on Friday! I am not venturing anywhere except my glorious hometown, something that of course always makes me happy. However, when people have asked me what I’m doing for break and I respond with “home” well I generally receive a “WHAT?! But it’s your senior year, last chance, you had better live it up!” Now I understand people are not doing this with malicious intent but it is starting to bug the begeezus out of me.

It is true, I am not going anywhere, but honestly, I have no money, we all know about the isolation issue and lack of friends, and yeah, maybe I am a bit bitter too! In this situation I will revert back to the idea I discussed on Monday, a legit spring break is not what I need or can do right now, and that is OKAY.

Anyway sorry about the tangent, but just wanted to fill you in on certain aspects of my life with some venting thrown in there!

Now, as it is halfway through the work week after all, it’s time to showcase some recent eats (from yesterday) for What I Ate Wednesday! Dearest Jenn, thank you for hosting this once again, as it’s something I always look forward to participating in :)

I am constantly conscious of the food choices I am making, how I am eating, how I feel about it, what it is doing to my body, etc. As I said a few days ago, it is essential for me to maintain such a focus in order to keep myself in check with the whole recovery business. I have said this once and shall say it again, I desire to have a normal view and relationship/attitude with food and my body, and this can be achieved with practice, effort and determination.

As a result of the focus, I have been noticing some rather annoying, undesirable, or unfavorable habits, actions and choices that involve food/eating, that simply have go to go. I stick to these “habits” because (depending on what they are) allow me to have a sense of control over certain aspects of my meal… and yet they tend to backfire at times.

Okay so that was fairly vague, so allow me to explain myself through a What I Ate Wednesday post, habits, actions, and choices that provide nothing beneficial and even prolong the normalization of eating.


Typical bowl of cereal/yogurt with fruit to begin the day:

In the bowl: 2% Plain Chobani, Kashi Go Lean Crunch, Oat Bran (switched it up at Emma’s suggestion!), raspberries, with vanilla soy milk mixed in to thin it out.

A perfect cup of Dunkin Donuts original coffee brewed in my room… half and half mixed in there as well.

Habit #1- I use artificial sweeteners… often. There I said it! Please do not lecture me on how horribly bad they are for you, I have heard this over and over. And yet, I still use them. During breakfast for example, I put a sweet & low pack (the worst one supposedly, yep), and another pack in my coffee- alright dang 1.5 packs in my coffee! They are also used in the sometimes-ice coffee in the afternoon as well, any time I have tea…

It’s something I am conscious of but find it VERY hard to break away from, I love my stuff sweet and don’t want to use sugar instead! I am aware of how much disordered eating plays a role in this, I desire to save calories from the sugar. Phew, felt good to admit that one. I am aware of this and plan to at least cut back. I really do not think I could go cold turkey on the artificial awesomeness.

Snack #1:

Well I was PLANNING on having a mix of Kashi cereal and almonds… but then this happened,

Dang. I was running late to class that morning and didn’t have time to clean this up before rushing out the door… although I did manage a picture haha. So instead I went with a new-for-me energy bar that I picked up a few days ago at CVS for a buck:

Although not quite a Snickers bar, this was a particularly tasty choice! Not as “healthy” as other bars out there, so I would probably consume these less often than some more wholesome ones out there.

Habit #2- This has to go with the more mindful/intuitive eating thing I am continuously striving for… I eat bars like this way too fast. The above one for example, gone in maybe 2 bites. I used to fear energy bars, the calorie count and the nagging feeling of “wasting my calories” on them… and I suppose that fear still lingers to a certain extent. I can’t eat just a bite of one, put it down, wait, take another bite, wait, and so on. NOPE, scarf time.

I believe that it can be okay to eat as fast/slow as you want to, but this is something I personally want to work on. I can’t focus until that energy/protein bar is consumed, and well it’s annoying.


You are never going to guess! SALAD.

Never, ever will get sick of this combo. Well for now :) In this mix: spinach, mixed greens, red peppers, tomatoes, mushrooms, cucumbers, one whole egg, two egg whites, a hearty dollop of cottage cheese… and olive oil mixed with lemon juice for my healthy fat source. No ketchup or nuts today, wasn’t feeling them.

I also had a hefty bowl of fresh fruit:

Honeydew, cantaloupe, and pineapple topped with Raisin Bran and some Quaker granola. I have said this before but yumm I love when the cereal gets softened by the fruit, but also when it sticks to the pieces! A nice additional flavor, texture and crunch.

Habit #3- Alright here is a major one for me, and actually applies to all meals of the day, and slightly hard to describe. Basically after each time I eat, I feel like I cannot conclude the meal until I have had a hard candy, quickly followed by gum, a habit at it’s very best! For one thing, I cannot stand to have food stuck in my teeth, so the hard candy (sugar-free/artificial sweeteners ugh) helps to absolve that issue… then I just have automatically have gum right after because I am expecting that mint flavor.

It helps me to stop eating once I am done with my food, and now I have set myself up that I feel very uncomfortable if I don’t have the candy right after! Obviously I do NOT want to rely on something like this, and plus it is a bit disordered as I feel I don’t’ have the will power to stop eating on my own…

Habit #4- I can’t not mention this one after what I just wrote- gum addiction. Yep sure am guilty of this one. It goes along with the stopping me from eating thing, well yes, that is exactly what it does. Part of this is also I feel the need to constantly have my mouth stimulating, as if i can’t just sit with my satiety, my fullness or my hunger and gum helps to distract. This actually has gotten MUCH better though- I used to go through at least a pack a day! (gosh it sounds like cigarettes ha)

Snack #2

My dear friends, time to get pumped for the product I found in Whole Foods the other day,

Earth Balance Coconut and Peanut Spread- Oh… oh yes! This is as good as you would imagine. The peanut flavor is there as is this coconut one and they mesh rather perfectly together! I paired a nice-sized spoonful of this with an apple for dipping (not pictured) great combination to say the least!

Habit #5- I always go back to the nut butter jar RIGHT after I am “finished” with my snack/meal. I have the serving size, enjoy it but then find myself sticking my spoon or errr finger back in for another scoop (or 2, 3, 4?!)  Physically I should not care… as I know my body needs the extra calories, fat and all of that good stuff.

But it’s the habit part of this, the mentality behind the action that I am not a fan of. Goes right along with establishing normal eating, and all this does is make me very uncomfortable and that terrifying lack-of-control feeling. I am getting better and better at eating the number of calories I need, yet that *slight* binge/stuff myself feeling remains. I would like that to go away, please and thank you.


A plate of some various favorites,

Six-inch sub on wheat bread with turkey, provolone cheese (new found love +conquering a fear food= win), cucumbers, tomatoes, lettuce and honey mustard. Baked chips placed within the sandwich of course, and randomly half an avocado on the side. I debated putting slices of the avocado on the sandwich, but I felt like enjoying this nutritious food all by itself…. well coated in salt and pepper that is :)

Habit #6- Now this is not a “bad” one necessarily, but I do feel a need to end the day with something sweet. Again, I am not saying this is wrong, but another habit I did want to mention. It’s a further example of some decisions I make that I feel very helpless to stop, and that is the feeling I am not a enjoying.

On that note, here is how I ended the day,

Gosh do I love this stuff, Trader Joe’s has so many products I enjoy, this is of course just one of the few. WF was out of the Popcorn Indiana I usually buy, so this was my next choice.

Habit #7- I just thought of one more that doesn’t have to do with today’s eats but happens A LOT. Sometimes I don’t feeling like making the physical and mental  commitment to having a whole meal and so I snack instead as a way to avoid eating it… Oh and then I eat the meal after, therefore end up consuming much more than I had originally planned. Just throwing that last one in there, drives me nuts.

*For the record, I am not saying these are “bad” necessarily, I just don’t like feeling the compulsive need to engage in some of them, they control me sometimes, and some are used to eat less, stop eating and just all have to do with food. This annoys me!

And with that, this concludes What I Ate Wednesday… with some rather unfavorable habits I am hoping to break. At this point I don’t have an answer to them, or how exactly to ebb away from the ones I pointed out. However, I am conscious and am revealing what has been on my ind in regards to these. I always say this, recognition is the first step to making a change and although I am at the preliminary stages, I will continue to work toward what I want… in this case, free of the habits!

 -Can you relate to any of the habits/actions I have here? If so, do they bother you as they do for me?

-What (if any) are some habits around food/eating/meals you want to change? What about ones beyond food?

-Do you use artificial sweeteners? Did you used to… how did you ebb away from them if you were able to?

-Have you tried that almond butter? If not, do so (well if you like coconut :) )

-When eating a certain snack like nut butter in my case, do you have trouble stopping yourself from going back for more? Where do you think this stems from, or what is the reason?

-Of course, tell me the best thing you ate/made/tasted in the past 7 days!

Thank you for sharing and have a great rest of your Wednesday! Half way folks :)

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1 Natasha March 14, 2012 at 5:31 am

We all have some bad habits with food, it is human nature, so you are not alone!
I definitely share a gum addiction, however this has been going on wayyyyyyy before my disordered eating habits, but it is so hard for me to break the habit!
Other than that, I have not been addicted to artificial sweeteners, but I recently did try stevia for a while and I was noticing that I was becoming to dependent on it; it was also giving me headaches and stomach aches, so I just quit it cold turkey, and it was kinda hard, so I knew I was getting slightly addicted. If I were you I would just start by decreasing the amount you eat so that you can eventually ween yourself off of it!
Other than that, have an awesome day girl :)
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2 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 6:33 am

Oh gosh the gum is sooo tough for me too! I would literally freak out without it!


3 Vien @ We Dare Food March 14, 2012 at 5:35 am

ahhh I’m guilty myself for some of the habits you mentioned. The sweetener one, the nut butter one, the ending my day with something sweet one… but I actually don’t mind any of them! well, except the artificial sweetener one. Oooh! I have a really bad habit actually- I need to have something on (eg. computer, tv, etc.) when I’m eating my dinner/lunch. Bad bad bad habit.
Ekkk! Poor snacks!!! It happened to me once! HAHA we shouldn’t rush when it comes to food! ;)
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4 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 7:13 am

I would not say those are “bad” just ones you perhaps want to consider changing :) I need something to watch/read too, I could never just eat a meal!


5 Amy @ Turtle-speed Runner March 14, 2012 at 6:10 am

I definitely do most of these – but I don’t think they are too bad in the scheme of things. I have tried to quit artificial sweetener, as I am 99% sure they cause (for me, anyway) epic bloating. It’s so hard though!

Glad you’re enjoying warmer weather. I’m definitely enjoying cooler weather, hehe. It’s kind of fun to read other people’s blogs all talking about how cold they are when I’m melting… and then how we’re all really happy when autumn / spring turns up and the weather gets cooler / warmer. :)

I eat the gum after meals too. And my after dinner sweet “snack” is a hot chocolate made with pure cacao, no sugar and a splash of milk. I’m a little bit addicted…

The only way for me to stop doing the binge thing with peanut butter was to cut it out completely. I know that sounds completely crazy, but it’s something I’ve had to do. I’ll bring it back in some day!
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6 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 7:12 am

I am not sure how much the artificial sweeteners bother me… I mean I am errr gassy pretty often (TMI? fo sho) and I wonder how much of that has to do with the amount of roughage I eat or sweeteners. I suppose I could dabble and investigate with this but ehhh, not in the mood to right now haha
I can understand the PB business… sometimes it’s too hard to have around me as well


7 Amy @ Turtle-speed Runner March 14, 2012 at 9:31 am

Hahaha… I was going to mention the gas myself but I thought…naaah… that’s TMI! So I’m glad you did ;)
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8 Kaitlyn March 14, 2012 at 6:30 am

Very interesting take on WIAW!!!

And regarding “spring break”….do not worry at all! I went home during the spring break my senior year and had a WONDERFUL time. Definitely not necessary to go traveling around the world…you’ll have your whole life for that :)
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9 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 7:10 am

Well thank you Kaitlyn, it’s nice to know I am not the only one!


10 Erica @ For the Sake of Cake March 14, 2012 at 7:20 am

It’s ok to mention the beautiful weather… it’s awesome!!! :-)

I use artificial sweeteners too… every morning in my coffee. Of course we’ve all heard how “bad” they are, but I think as long as we’re not dumping them on everything we eat, we’ll be ok!
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11 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:12 pm

Good point…. I really do not over use them, so that’s something to note!


12 Alexandra March 14, 2012 at 7:36 am

I agree, the weather has been phenomenal!! It must be mentioned heehee
I can relate with the gum habit, I used to have to chew it after every stinking meal. It got expensive, but my breath smelled good haha ;)
And umm holy monkey pantaloons I HAVE to find that new coconut pb, it’s like the nut butter gods are trying to assassinate our wallets! I can’t wait to try it on an apple like you did!
Hope you enjoy the weather and have a grand day! Spring break is ALMOST HERE WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!! :D
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13 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:14 pm

SERIOUSLY! I did not go into WF that day to buy nut butter… I innocently went in there to waste time and relax me. And then BANG there it was! How could i not buy something combining pb and coconut?! Yep :)


14 Liz @ iheartvegetables March 14, 2012 at 7:57 am

YAY for spring break being around the corner! I hope you have a lovely and relaxing time! I’ve never seen that coconut peanut butter but it sounds deLISH!
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15 Colleen March 14, 2012 at 8:05 am

I quit ALL artificial sugars a year ago. Gosh it was hard, but I’m a year “clean”. I havent had gum, candy, diet drinks, sweetened anything in a year!! I saw a big, positive difference in my digestive health. I have so many allergies and I knew the art sugars were not helping my problems. I just had to quit cold turkey. I do not have much control over pb. This is my prong break week and im subbing 8-10 classes a day at my gyms–as well as my regular classes. I have no time (or desire) to eat b/t hours of classes, so teaspoons of pb have been my savior this week.


16 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:16 pm

Phew I am inspired by your ability to quit the sweeteners! Also motivated…. perhaps I could do it!? Not now though, I am lacking the will power
You had best be getting in more than a few tsp of PB, you need more woman! I mean that in a playful way, not negative at all :)


17 Gen March 14, 2012 at 8:05 am

I definitely have trouble stopping once I get going with eating peanut butter……….and then I feel sick and icky, which is not helpful in the whole recovery process!
Wow! That nut butter looks incredible….one more thing on my list of stuff to try out when I get there!
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18 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:17 pm

I think once we get our fix and realize no one will take this away from us… also giving ourselves permission to eat such items.. will help to discourage the need to “binge”


19 Sable@SquatLikeALady March 14, 2012 at 8:07 am

Hey sweetie – thank you so so so much for stopping over yesterday & keeping Grammie in your thoughts <3 it really means so much to me <3
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20 Khushboo Thadani March 14, 2012 at 8:08 am

Thanks for your honesty once again, girl! I have nixed artificial sweeteners completely from my diet but I don’t think I could have done so cold turkey! I gradually weaned myself off – I didn’t get addicted to the stuff overnight, so I can’t expect myself to escape it overnight either!

I’m guilty of being somewhat of a habitual eater too! One habit which I have recognized and am working to change is always ending my meal on a sweet note! It’s become so routine that I eat something sweet (even just fruit) regardless of whether or not I actually want it- it’s somewhat of an automated response to cleanse my palate! I want to get rid of this habit as of today- instead of eating the fruit I packed right after lunch, I realized I was full and ended my meal with a cuppa tea instead…and surpise surprise, I am a-ok :)!
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21 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:18 pm

I am inspired by your ability to quite them! Very inspiring :)
I should try the tea thing, that could really help!


22 Lyn @ FueledBySalad March 14, 2012 at 8:12 am

Runner’s high is awesome. Can anyone get sick of salad, seriously? I don’t think so. Habits are hard to break, definitely, but you can totally do it.
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23 Kianni March 14, 2012 at 8:21 am

I use Sweet n Low and Stevia, and while it bugs me a bit, I am used to it now, and while I kinda wish to chang it I feel I’d rather leave it be for now than add sugar. I use Sweet n Low in coffee and hot cocoa, but stevia in iced coffee and smoothies, where it hides the aftertaste. So I average about 2 sweet n low and 2 Stevia packets a day.

I also don’t like eating bars, because they make me anxious..their size ( calorie density), and depending on what kind, the density and texture (if I can break it apart or not)I have gotten better at not feeling obsessive about not being able to focus on everything else until the bar is gone, however part of me has also stopped caring and just lets me eat it right away so I can get over it and move on to something that really matters.

A few years ago, I used to chew gum constantly. It was an anxiety thing, feeling like I need to chew. It’s kinda like “stimming” I still feel that way alot, (anxious) in which I want to chew, and I feel my jaw almost ache in wanting gum to “soothe” me, but I just live with the feeling, as I don’t want to get into that habit again. Just yesterday I was stressed and knew I was going to be somewhere I normally wasn’t in the afternoon. I went to Target and was going to buy gum to soothe me. I didn’t though, becuase then I knew I’d be dependent on it…If I buy it I’ll use it, if not..I can’t! Though for a while I was able to use it only when I felt I really “needed” it, to take the edge off. But, I knew I’d get through my anxiety as time would elapse on it’s own and I wouldn’t need gum, even if I was anxious, especially since I couldn’t leave, I used it to my advantage.

As for the ending with something sweet, I’ve gotten better at this, but for me it’s quite an OCD thing. I have to eat this this and this, in this order. but recently I’ve just allowed myself, to not HAVE to eat that one sweet thing, it I want more of the latter, or perhaps save it til later if I want it. I always end my meals with some sort of drink. That is my thing, it is also calming for me.

I still kinda do that last habit. When its about an hour away from when I’m going to eat a meal, I get anxious and suddenly want to eat, I realize it’s becuase I know I’m going to “have to” eat in an hour, and somehow by snacking, I feel it validates ‘I’m hungry, so it’s ok if I eat in an hour, I’ll eat this to tide me over” or something. Usually I’m good at distracting myself until then. Also, for some reason its the fear of eating and convinced if i eat earlier on something MAYBE i’ll be too full and won’t get to eat at that time. However my OCD overides and tends to be adamant of eating at that time. So for me actually allowing myself something before, just becuase I feel like it is a good thing at times.
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24 Lauren @ What Lauren Likes March 14, 2012 at 8:31 am

Great post girl! And oh my gosh that coconut spread sounds amazing :D
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25 Kate @ Chasing It March 14, 2012 at 8:34 am

1. FWIW, I never went on a legit spring break either! I think the most I did was my senior year, I spent half of break in Florida at my best friends house. We went shopping and did homework and went to her gym (albeit in 80 degree weather which was nice). It was SUPER EXCITING haha. Honestly, at least at W&M the spring semester feels really long and you only get ONE break (as opposed to fall break, thanksgiving etc), so by week 7 I was always just exhausted and burnt out with school and wanted to do nothing more than sleep and watch crap TV. No better place than home!!

2. Aaah these habits……so many familiar ones in here!! I am AWFUL about the “PB Fingers” haha, and honestly I think I was doing it at first because my body wasn’t getting enough of something, but now that i’ve corrected my intake & nutrients, I think it’s just a bad habit that needs to be broken. It DOES make me feel out-of-control! Sometimes when I talk about how frustrating this is to me, people are like “its okay, you probably need the calories!” and I’m like…okay, I don’t mind the calories, but I’d rather make the conscious decision to have those calories, and then put them on a plate, sit down and eat them rather than mindlessly dip my finger in the jar. lol. I still haven’t figured out how to break this one, and I do it most when I’m stressed out…..gah. We can figure it out together!
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26 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:21 pm

There really is no place better than home.. and I will enjoy every minute of doing Nathin :D
PB fingers- good way of referring to it, so true! That is EXACTLY how I feel too. I am eating the amount I need, not restricting (I could increase my cals slightly still but overall a-okay) and yes therefore it’s an obnoxious habit! Let’s try to figure it out, let me know when you do Kate!


27 Kaitlin @4loveofcarrots March 14, 2012 at 8:38 am

your eats always look so good!

When I was struggling with disordered eating I ALWAYS used artificial sweeteners! I drink my coffee black but I would drink a lot of crystal light, crystal light and vodka was my drink of choice freshmen and sophmore year of college. It took me a while to break that habit and I usually stay away from all artificial sweeteners now but it was a security thing for me for a while so I totally get it. I also chew a lot of gum, like whole packs a day and my addiction to it started when I was limiting my eating, I thought if I had gum in my mouth I wouldnt eat and now I am addicted to gum and always have to have a piece in my mouth. It is still a security thing for me today and I don’t know that I will ever be able to break the habit.

I am also guilty of habit number 7… sometimes I convince myself I am not really hungry and then I start picking at different things in the house and the after picking I decide I should have a real meal and then after that real meal I dwell on how much I just ate. I haven’t done it in a while but it which is good because I would really beat myself up over it. If it got to the point where I felt so guilty I would go workout again..


28 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:25 pm

Oh yes crystal light used to be a good friend of mine… diet coke and vodka or seltzer and vodka are my choices out still. Oopsie! Gum is a security thing for me too, it provides lots of relief and plays tons of different roles and reasons why I chew it!
I am glad you have not done that in awhile.. we don’t never need to do “compensatory” behaviors like that


29 Laura @ LauraLikesDesign March 14, 2012 at 8:39 am

Ah, that PB sounds so, so good! I just love anything coconut!

I can relate to the needing something sweet after dinner for sure! I find that if I don’t have something sweet, I end up snacking way more than I’d like throughout the remainder of the evening.

I’d like to be comfortable eating at any restaurant. Right now I still get nervous about certain places because they don’t have anything “safe.”

I don’t use artificial sweeteners just because my body doesn’t do well with chemicals…stomachaches and headaches usually follow.

I used to have a hard time with snack portions because I was feeling so deprived. Now that I eat a more balanced diet, I don’t have many cravings or a hard time stopping at one serving. (okay, except for ice cream…I could eat 2 bowls of that easily)

Best thing I ate recently = a black bean market sandwich…my friend just gave me the recipe after we had them at her house and I can’t wait to make them at home!

Hope you have a great rest of the week, Tessa!
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30 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:30 pm

I will admit there are still some restaurants that I feel uncomfortable eating at… this shows me that clearly there is work to do! Which I knew, but yeah, this is evidence.
That sandwich sounds delicious! Do you think you might post the recipe on your blog?


31 Mattie @ Comfy and Confident March 14, 2012 at 8:42 am

I have all the same habits! Seriously, as I read each one, I kept thinking ME TOO!!! especially the gum addiction and sweetener. I don’t put sweetener in my coffee, but I def do with my tea. And, if I want to add sweetness I much prefer artificial sweetener over real sugar (and the calories!)
That salad looks reallllll good!


32 Laura@keepinghealthygettingstylish March 14, 2012 at 8:55 am

I can totally relate to the nut butter thing. I know the extra calories won’t kill me but the habit itself I find distressing. I’m working hard on just having a serving and leaving the jar alone after that. I had started to develop a habit of over eating on a Friday and Sat night when sat in front of the TV, I know I need the calories but I want to get them through proper meals rather than loads of snacks that just leave me feeling stuffed and unhappy. So far this week so good though!
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33 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:33 pm

Exactly.. it’s the act of doing it, the lack of control and how it’s unnecessary and also causes distress!
I need to work on snacking less and eating more fulfilling meals too.. I know it makes me feel better!


34 HollieisFueledByLOLZ March 14, 2012 at 8:57 am

I’vve never even seen that Snickers Marathon bar. Oh gosh. Anyways-I use sweeteners a lot too and don’t really regret it. I used to try and work on it bu I use Stevia/Truvia now so that is the most working on it I’ll get I think lol!
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35 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:50 pm

You actually inspired me to buy one of those bars the other day when I saw it on your blog :) True story.


36 Bethany March 14, 2012 at 9:15 am

I used to use splenda but recently I have been using Truvia! It’s still calorie free–but my nutritionist told me it was MUCH safer and better than the other “artificial” sweeteners. Truvia is also a lot like real sugar and not the powdery stuff like splenda or sweet’n’low!

Let me know if you try it what you think :)


37 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:00 pm

A few people have been mentioning Truvia.. I should give it a try! Thank you for the suggestion :)


38 Carrie Purchase @ Lift Eat Repeat March 14, 2012 at 9:15 am

For me its gum- Since I don’t eat sweets, that is basically how I get my sweets in. There are so many delicious flavors too :)

Best thing I’ve eaten recently was my Chocolate Peanut Butter Banana Pancakes!
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39 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 11:33 am

No sweets?! I could neverrr, but power to ya! ha
I can understand why the pancakes would be a recent favorite :)


40 Sarah @ Every Day's a Picnic March 14, 2012 at 9:29 am

I used artificial sweeteners from a young age because my Mum used them I guess. I also drank a lot of Diet Coke and ate diet foods that have them in. About 18 months ago I gave up Diet Coke cold turkey because it was damaging my teeth and it’s so chemically. After that I kind of lost the taste for sweeteners and they taste so … artificial. I use stevia occasionally and often use dried fruit as a natural sweetener in oatmeal, although it doesn’t much help you in coffee.
It’s the same sort of story with gum – I used to chew it a lot and then stopped because my compulsiveness with it was starting to annoy me. Now I can’t imagine chewing gum (unless I’ve just eaten something very garlicky) and I don’t enjoy it much.
I sometimes get into the habit of eating something sweet after a meal. As you say, there’s nothing wrong with that as such, but it can be annoying. It’s tough, but sometimes I make a conscious effort not to eat as much sweet stuff and focus on savoury snacks instead to get out of the habit.
In general, I find sitting with my satiety quite difficult and often find myself reaching for something else even though I’m not hungry – usually cereal. It’s something I’m working on at the moment and I think the key is knowing that I 100% can eat something else if I’m hungry, but I don’t have to if it’s going to make me over-full.
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41 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:25 pm

That is awesome you have been able to ebb away from these former habits! I know I have cut back on my diet coke consumption a lotttt and I am proud of myself for that. It’s so good sometimes though, I still love it haha :)
Sitting with satiety is a major challenge for me. Please let me know if you have any tips or breakthroughs with this, I would love to hear them!


42 Kat March 14, 2012 at 9:33 am

Yes, artificial sweeteners are bad, but want to know whats worse?! NOT LIVING!! Being so stuck on one thing that you cant just relax! I try to keep them out of my diet, but guess what? I still eat sugar free jello all the time and LOVE it! Yup I do. I also drink diet coke, VERY rarely (only during pro football season!) but I still drink it! Life is too precious and short to be so rigid. Suffering from an ED shows you that. So I say, do what you’ve gotta do. If you need a few packs a day then go with it :) One day try to switch to stevia. You’ll never go back I promise :):)
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43 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:27 pm

TRUE to all of this! I could try stevia one day too… a few people have mentioned it and why not!


44 Ashley @ My Food 'N' Fitness Diaries March 14, 2012 at 9:34 am

i can absolutely relate to some of these habits either in my past and in the present! i used to use artificial sweeteners like they were my crack. it was crazy. i finally cut down in the past several months, and i noticed i didn’t crave sweets quite as much and i became more sensitive to sweet food. have you tried stevia? i’d try it out! it takes a little bit to get used to, but it’s grown on me. i use it in my coffee and in my oatmeal sometimes. the gym chewing one is a big one for me. i used to always need a piece in my mouth. it’s gotten better mostly because i have some jaw issues and gum gets expensive! i like something sweet after dinner too, but i honestly don’t know if that will ever change. i just love my sweets! ;)
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45 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:28 pm

I haven’t tried Stevia itself! But I have had those drinks from WF for example, that are made with stevia and while I do like them… I feel like they have a bit of an odd after taste. Maybe it’s just those drinks? not sure, but I would try them again!


46 chelcie @ chelcie's food files March 14, 2012 at 9:50 am

I have a lot of the same habits you do..while they might not be the best to have they are not necessarily THAT terrible depending on how you look at it..all of your eats look delicious!! especially that caramel corn AHH
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47 CJ @ http://healthy-happy-whole.com March 14, 2012 at 10:01 am

I can totally relate to a bunch of these habits! I actually had to completely stop chewing gum completely for a while to kick that one because I, like you, was chewing a pack a day! Now I limit myself to one piece after every meal and I think that seems relatively appropriate.
I actually drink carbonated beverages a lot if i am hungry and think I “shouldn’t” be. Seltzer water is consumed at least once a day which is a HUGE improvement from the 3-4 before.
What I really need to do is just have a snack if I get hungry at an off time, but of course that is easier said than done!
Good luck beating these girl! I know you can :-)
PS that nut butter sounds pretty darn fantastic. Who doesnt love coconut?!
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48 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:30 pm

That is an appropriate amount! Good job on cutting back on that habit
The time thing is sometimes hard for me to get around.. but just have to keep eating when you are full, simple as that! Obviously easier said than done


49 Ashley Pomes March 14, 2012 at 10:12 am

What a great post. I am in the same boat as you, trying to recognize my habits and change the ones I do not like. I can totally relate to #7 the most. I don’t want a whole meal so I will pick then about 30 minutes later I will actually eat the meal then get mad at myself because I have eaten more then I planned. It is a habit I am trying to break. I also have habit #5 as well. I find myself going back for more also and I want to stop that because I want to try and have a normal relationship with food. Other habits that I want to break beyond food is being down on myself.

-I actually never used artificial sweeteners. I have worked for dentist since I was 14 so the dangers are always in my head about how bad they are for your teeth lol. Have you ever tried truvia. It is the only brand of stevia I like.

-I love almond butter. I actually like it more then peanut butter. I know I am against the rest of the blog world on that one but it is my go to over peanut butter but I try and control myself because the brand I buy is like $10 a jar.

-I do have trouble with snacking wanting to keep going back for more. I think for me it stems from me wanting to make sure my lower calorie snack fills me up so I do not eat to much at my actual meal. It is a crazy cycle and I am working on stopping that one and trying to enjoy the snack that I have at a certain moment.

-The best thing I ate this week was chocolate covered Katie’s One minute chocolate cake. It was so good I could not believe that is was sort of healthy lol.
Happy WIAW. Again great post. keep up the great work :)
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50 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:32 pm

Thank you for your thoughts on this Ashley! I have not tried Truvia but might soon… a few people have been mentioning it here and it could be a good change!
I like almond butter wayyyyyy more! I had to buy this particular one though because it had coconut in it :) I will have to try that cake as well! I am in the mood for something like that


51 Maggie @ Running on Fro-Yo March 14, 2012 at 10:25 am

That almond butter sounds really yummy I might have to buy some to try it! Does it taste super coconut-y?? I do like coconut but I don’t know how I would like my almond butter being overpoweringly coconut haha :)

Blah I have definitely been thinking about the artificial sweetener thing lately- I finished up a bottle of sugar-free maple syrup this morning and told myself that I should really just get the REAL thing when I buy the next bottle b/c all the artificial sweeteners aren’t good! I don’t know if I’ll actually be able to do that, though.
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52 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:34 pm

It’s not super coconutty and I completely understand that question! I don’t like when things have that flavor on overload… I really hate it in some products as a matter of fact and love it other times. Weird!


53 Melissa March 14, 2012 at 10:25 am

First of all, I NEED that coconut spread! Oh holy delicious!

Second, I think it’s good to be aware of these things, but don’t beat yourself up too much. These are coping strategies, and honestly, none of them is horrible for you. I, too, have a hard time eating something like an energy or granola bar without eating it quickly, but it’s something we can practice. Just try taking a breath between bites the next time you eat one, or put it down in between bites. Strive for progress, not perfection, right???

And you are spot on with the weather stuff–it’s made the last few days so much better for me, too! Go enjoy spring break at home. I’d do the same thing if I got a break! :)
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54 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:35 pm

Good point.. they really are not that bad and I like your attitude and thoughts on them! They you for this other perspective


55 Ashley @ AlmostVegGirlie March 14, 2012 at 10:39 am

I have a serious gum addiction too! I go through a pack in a couple of days which can get pretty expensive but I feel better knowing that my teeth are getting cleaned after every meal without having to brush several times a day! I also love artificial sweeteners, but I’ve completely switched over to Truvia and liquid stevia drops because they’re more natural than other kinds–maybe you could try mixing Truvia and Sweet n Low to see if you like the taste of Truvia?

I’m actually the opposite with bars–I can make them last 20 minutes! I think it’s because I’m scared to eat them too fast and not feel satisfied afterwards. I don’t think eating slowly is a bad thing, but if it’s because of a fear then it’s definitely not so good!
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56 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 11:37 am

So true, it really is an expensive habit! But that’s a good point, it does help to keep your teeth clean (well as long as you use the sugar free stuff of course!)
I could try Truvia.. a few people have been mentioning it and it’s not something I previously even thought of!


57 Amy March 14, 2012 at 10:40 am

Once again, part of this post could have been taken right from my brain!! I totally am addicted to sugar free Werthers (8 calories each…) and gum. If I’m not eating, I’m having one of those- guaranteed. At this point I attribute it to being a bad habit- not using it to overall suppress my appetite…I suppose thats a bad habit I’m really willing to break!

I use artificial sweetners ALL THE TIME! As in, I don’t use real sugar in drinks or anything. I started buying Truvia, so I use that sporadically, but mostly its all Splenda all the time…I agree with you, I KNOW how terrible it is for me- but can’t stop!


58 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 11:35 am

Ha yepppp that is indeed the calorie count on those! I have never tried Truvia but a few people have been mentioning it, so I might have to give it a go!


59 Lisa ♥ Healthful Sense March 14, 2012 at 10:46 am

Coconut peanut spread?!! Shocked… never even heard of it before. Definitely looking for that!

I totally relate to your habit of eating extra PB from the jar. I guess I need to close the jar right away after I get what I need lol!!
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60 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 11:34 am

Ha yes that is my technique too! Although sometimes my hand gets back in there before I realize what’s happening ;)


61 Faith @ For the Health of It March 14, 2012 at 11:20 am

A lot of your habits are really normal, Tessa! I’m with you on the scarfing down energy bars…except I really fly through all of my food, now that I think about it! The sweet endings habit is another one I share with you. I like having something chocolatey to end the day, but I can’t stop at just a cookie or a handful of chocolate chips. I plow through half the bag! It’s definitely not a good habit, and I need to break it! Do you have any tips on breaking unhealthy habits? If not, I’d love to see a future post about it :)


62 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 12:35 pm

No tips yet… but hopefully I will soon and definitely will do a follow-up post. Thank you for the suggestion :)


63 Heidi @ Idlehide March 14, 2012 at 11:48 am

I’ve tried to stop using artificial sweeteners, isn’t ‘stevia’ a healthy option? I’ve only heard of it, I’ve never actually tried it.
Ok, that cocount peanut spread looks sooo good! I need to try it:)
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64 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:36 pm

That is what people have been saying here! Might have to give it a go… or at least research it a bit more!


65 Karla @ myhighonlife March 14, 2012 at 12:01 pm

You’re not alone on the artificial sweetners… I use them in coffee and tea as well. That salad looks to die for Tessa. But not as much as that peanut and coconut spread. Must get my hands on that ASAP! Happy Hump day :)
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66 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 12:32 pm

YES you must.. life-changing I am tellin ya ;)


67 glidingcalm March 14, 2012 at 12:09 pm

one of my most favorite quotes: “It’s about progress, not perfection.”

and yes, I have a gum addiction for sure. It needs to stop.
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68 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 12:27 pm

That really is one of my favorites quotes as well… always a good one to remember


69 Chelsea @ One Healthy Munchkin March 14, 2012 at 12:11 pm

I think everyone can relate to having habits like these – it’s totally normal! :) I can relate to your habit of eating a hard candy after a meal – I always like to eat a piece of chocolate or some dried fruit after eating because I like ending it on a sweet note!

Also about artificial sweeteners – I used to eat them like a fiend! I drank diet Coke, Crystal Lite, and I ate all those low calorie artificially sweetened yogurts. I don’t eat those yogurts or Crystal Lite anymore and I cut down drastically on diet Coke…but I still like to have one every few weeks or so. I figure every once in a while won’t hurt. :P
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70 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:37 pm

Once in a while definitely won’t hurt… you are right! I have cut way back on all of that stuff too and need to give myself credit sometimes!


71 Tayla March 14, 2012 at 1:01 pm

I can relate to almost all of your habits you mentioned…I think most of them are due to the Ed as that is the case for me. I never knew that there was someone else who did the same things I did…I thought I was the only one and all alone but now I know I’m not. I am addicted to gum and it’s really bad…I hate having the artificial sweeteners in it but I can’t stop because like you said, it stops me from eating and keeps my mouth busy. I used to use it (when I was deep into Ed) as a way to hide my hunger so I’m glad I’ve moved away from that at least. I’m getting better too though.

I love how open and honest you are Tessa, it’s amazing. Thank you for your inspiration.
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72 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:39 pm

Awww Tayla you are certainly not the only one! I think that is always a relief to realize, you are never alone with your struggles! Thank you for your very kind words


73 cam@mtl-fitness March 14, 2012 at 1:02 pm

WOW! all your eats and your habits are so me…it’s scary! ahah
Putting it in writing is such an eye-opener though…
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74 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:03 pm

Writing it out helps me so much… enables me to really understand my own thoughts and actions!


75 Alexis March 14, 2012 at 2:16 pm

I have to let you know you are SO right about fage 2%. It’s way better than 0%.. Next up is the regular version for me. I’m anxious to see the difference between 2% and regular..

I have a really really really bad habit of the nut butters. I literally eat half a jar just well because. I will have finished my meal and I have this habit of eating too many spoonfuls and the next thing I know my spoon is hitting the bottom of the nut jar. I know this isn’t terrible since I need the calories but it’s an AWFUL habit I don’t want to continue forever!
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76 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:41 pm

Yes you put the nut butter thing into understandable words… I really don’t like the feeling I have around it!


77 gram March 14, 2012 at 3:07 pm

Hi, my Tessa,
Funny you should talk about something sweet after a meal. Noonie always wanted a sweet, Aunnie Ro also looks for just a oookie to end a meal, and now, I too feel the need. Never did before. In fact, I’m not really a sweet
person, (well, except ice cream, but that’s another whole food group) I would prefer a salty snack. I guess my message to you is enjoy it. It won’t destroy you. Noonie lived to 92, A.R. is 86 and still kicking and I’m —-, well you know how old, and I walk every day and play 18 holes of golf most days, and my Dr. says I’m in perfect health. So, my love, if a cookie makes you happy, go for it, it won’t kill you.
Love you lots & lots, Gram


78 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:07 pm

Good points gram! You are so right too, ice cream is in its own category :) Sometimes I feel an extra sweet will kill me, or a sweet at all sometimes, but nope, it sure won’t


79 Katherine March 14, 2012 at 3:33 pm

I really don’t have any issues with artificial sweeteners – my dad is diabetic, so I grew up around Equal, and we switched over to stevia once it became available. Honestly, you don’t really need to worry about artificial sweeteners unless you have issues processing phenylalanine – they’re the most researched food additive on the market.
I also like to have a small sweet to end lunch, but I’m trying to break away from that a little bit. However, I also eat the same meal every time I go to the dining hall at school for a couple of reasons. I have a lot of bad food allergies, so I have to be really careful about what I eat there if it’s already been prepared. However, I avoid the salad bar nowadays, because that really encourages me to fall back into bad ED habits. So even though what I eat now is routine (eggs, toast, fruit), it’s balanced and I can watch it being prepared so I don’t have to worry about an allergic reaction.


80 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 4:09 pm

That’s great to hear you are really paying attention to all of this… what could potentially trigger, so important to allowing the recovery process to progress!


81 Michelle @ Blogitness March 14, 2012 at 3:47 pm

I’ve addicted myself to Peanut Butter Company white chocolate wonderful this week!
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82 Ranjani @ Four Seasons of Food March 14, 2012 at 3:59 pm

Yup, I used to be a pack-a-day gum chewer too. I would always chew two sticks at a time because the mint flavor would fade too fast with just one. But I have a clicky jaw and I eventually realized the obvious – chewing all the time was not helping. I ended up quitting gum chewing cold turkey because if I even have one stick I always want more (this is sounding more and more like smoking!). I’m definitely glad I don’t do it anymore!


83 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 5:43 pm

Pheww good for you! That is an amazing feat! I am pretty sure I would flip out without it


84 Lindsay @ Fuel My Family March 14, 2012 at 4:18 pm

I think a lot of these habits are normal. I also have to have something sweet after dinner (and often lunch). I think since breakfast is usually sweet to begin with, I don’t need it after that meal. My problem with this is I don’t eat just 1 cookie to satisfy the sweet so a piece of candy is actually a nice healthy thing to do in my opinion!
I try to only use artificial sweeteners very rarely. Since I am breastfeeding, I don’t want it getting in my milk, even though they say a little bit doesnt hurt. Its easier to say no to when I am doing it for my daughter and not myself.


85 Laura @ LauraLivesLife March 14, 2012 at 4:22 pm

You know – I totally understand what you’re saying. I went through the exact same thing. I almost felt like I had to change everything to feel “normal” again – but I realized that some of my habits (like foods I eat) were actually really healthy. The key was recognizing the behaviors that weren’t and working on those, but also recognizing and ackwnowledging the good – after all, I lost 120 pounds, and that was a very good thing!

Great job listening to your body – and I hope you take a REAL break on Spring Break, even if you don’t go anywhere!
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86 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:51 pm

Very true Laura… that is very admirable what you did!


87 Errign March 14, 2012 at 4:32 pm

I have the same problem with nut butters sometimes because they’re so dang delicious!
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88 Julia @ girl with a stethoscope March 14, 2012 at 5:00 pm

Everyone has bad habits when it comes to food bc no one is perfect. And if you read/watch the news, EVERYTHING seems to cause cancer now a days..it’s such a headache! lol In terms of artificial sweeteners, I will def save you the lecture because I am sure you have heard it before but have you tried using Stevia or Truvia? They are the “natural” alternative to sweet & low and splenda so you don’t necessarily have to worry about all those chemicals in them! They are a bit pricier, but I think it’s totally worth it! But regardless, it’s not like you are consuming 10 packets a day so do not worry!
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89 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:51 pm

Ha true… what doesn’t cause cancer these days? We are going to die from something, so might as well be enjoyable? Uhh sure :)


90 ~Jessica~ March 14, 2012 at 5:52 pm

Honestly, I think nut butters are the strangest foodstuff ever. I have never met anyone that isn’t either a) terrified of their calorie density and so either eschews them altogether or makes one jar last a year or b) has a serious problem with not picking away at them or eating the whole jar. It’s a ‘healthy but calorie dense’ problem that I’d also apply to dried fruit. Some healthy foods don’t have the caveat on them of being ‘unhealthy’ when the urge to eat them becomes compulsive. Sadly, nut butters aren’t in that category for me. I don’t like using my fingers, because then the smell/oil lingers on them and reminds me of what I’ve done. But with a spoon? I go through 100-150g as a ‘serving’. It’s ridiculous, but then I see thin bloggers enjoying them and feel resentful that I can’t too…but obviously a 16, 32 or even 50g serving is very different to the amount I get through.

Bad habits? Ah, I have so many. I think most of the ones listed here people will relate to a lot.

My worst ones at the moment:
1.) ALWAYS having to finish all of something when it’s there. I roasted a huge entire kabocha squash, intending it to be two servings tonight, ate the lot, and now feel royally stuffed. And, I’ll still eat an evening snack leading to point
2.) Needing to eat *right* before bed (not sleep…just bed) because I find the prospect of a new day so depressing. At least by eating I can block out those thoughts. P
3.) Cocoa. Oh God, it’s a 500 calorie a day habit because I use so much Rice Milk and Cocoa powder. I have to end every.single.meal with one. It started as a treat last winter when it was really cold and now it’s become such a habit that I actually become extremely sad and cranky if I can’t get my fix.
4.) I pour stevia/Truvia on EVERYTHING. Someone pulled me up about it on my blog and it’s something I’ve done when I was undereating years ago too. The idea of a ‘free’ food is simply too intoxicating, particularly when it’s something sweet. It feels like cheating, like having one’s cake and eating it, so to speak, sticking two fingers up to my body and saying ‘haha, I can get my sweet fix and YOU can’t put on weight because of it.’
5.) Overeating/bingeing in general. I think about food every second of every minute of every day. I’m perpetually bored, angry with life, and deeply depressed. And food temporarily numbs the pain. But so much of the pain comes from my awful weight. And it’s ruining my stomach – my IBS is terrible. I also tend to copy other bloggers, but multiply their portion sizes by a million. I’m afraid to try new eating patterns which might help because I’m so scared of being judged and not as ‘perfect’ as everyone else, or of being seen to be amoral.

I used to chew gum and load up on Diet Pepsi when I had control over my calorie intake, but I don’t have either now.

It’s great that you’re working on these habits before they become compulsions – I don’t hold out hope that I’ll ever be able to beat mine.

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91 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:50 pm

Well that is a VERY accurate description of nut butters.. I mean wow, spot on. I really do understand what you are saying here, and you named another trigger food for me- dried fruit. CANNOT keep that around me, I just can’t stop.
Jess, I knowww you are struggling right now, with these habits and other stuff going on. But I do feel strongly that you can get around these… through hard work and all of that. I know, what a cliche thing to say, but It’s something I believe, and what I repeat to myself- this sucks a lot, but the changes and effort are worth it.


92 Lindsey @ Cardio Pizza March 14, 2012 at 5:52 pm

I can definitely relate – I love something sweet after lunch and dinner. A piece of fruit satisfies me after lunch at work, but at home after dinner I want the real thing (like cookies). I’m OK with it – Because I know it’s something I enjoy.

Do the artificial sweeteners hurt your stomach? It’s the main reason I don’t use them because they give me the worst stomach aches and bloat me. Plus, I overused them when I would restrict my intake. I think that when you get to a healthy place when you can eat without much thought and obsession that you will not want them anymore…same with the gum. I would go through a pack a day (sounds like a cigarette! hah). Now I don’t really chew any gum.


93 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:46 pm

It really does not bother my stomach! Or not that i have noticed… i am already pretty bloated and gassy from the roughage I eat, but that is not until after lunch/afternoon and I don’t use sweeteners then. I am sure if I started using MORE though, well it would become a problem


94 Allie March 14, 2012 at 6:06 pm

I love your honesty! I have a few bad habits… I <3 gum and I use fake sweeteners like Splenda. Oh well! :p Oh yeah… I don't mind you talking about the weather… it is amazing lately!
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95 StoriesAndSweetPotatoes March 14, 2012 at 6:21 pm

I used to be addicted to gum too. Well, it was an ED thing. Coffee then water then gum in place of a meal. WTF. I will probably never have gum again because now it makes me want to vomit.
Your poor cereal on the floor :( I am going to find that earth balance spread if it’s the last thing I do.
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96 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:44 pm

I would do coffee in place of a meal too… and diet coke. So yeah I can understand the negative association!


97 natalie @ will jog for food March 14, 2012 at 6:44 pm

I use artificial sweeteners in my coffee, splenda! I hate stevia in coffee!

I need to find that coconut peanut spread!
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98 Amy Lauren March 14, 2012 at 6:46 pm

I also have trouble with nut butter like you do. Especially that Peanut Butter and Company Cinnamon Raisin Swirl one. Now, I probably don’t eat THAT much more than an actual serving, but it feels like a ton to me because I’m well… disordered.

I use a ton of artificial sweeteners and trust me, I use WAY more than a packet and a half in a cup of coffee. For that size cup, I’d probably use about 4 packets. No lie. I know it’s not good for me, but well… calorie free. And sweeter than sugar, too. Plus it’s just convenient because we have a big container of them right there at work and you can rip open a few packs at a time and pour ‘em in.

I don’t think it’s bad to talk about the weather at all! I actually *like* reading how the weather is other places. I mean today it was 86 and probably broke records, even for the South that is hot, so it’s news and I’ll talk about it. I’m glad you’re having great weather for your Spring Break, we are too here (although I work, but still, the college here is on it this week).
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99 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:42 pm

Oh yesss that particular kind of PB and Co is addicting! I am glad you recognize that while you think it’s more than a serving, that is just the ED!


100 Cinnamon Girl March 14, 2012 at 7:17 pm

I had (have?) a gum problem. It was an addiction but now I’ve reduced it. Today, I bought gum for the first time in weeks. In order to keep it under control, I only pack four pieces in my back pack for the whole day. So far, so good :)

I’ve gotten a lot better with habits in terms of food/food rituals, but I always have ice cream for dessert. If not ice cream, always a sweet thing to end the day (like you :) ) and sometimes if I don’t pay attention,I will tear some of my food instead of just picking it up and eating it.

As far as artifical sweeteners, I’ve done pretty well lately with not having them. Its never been a huge problem for me but I would use one over sugar in coffee. I just don’t feel physically well afterwards so its not been as hard to cut them out. And I don’t mind black coffee sometimes.


101 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:41 pm

Ice cream is my choice of dessert too :) Black coffee? yeeshe I could never but of course that is its purest form!


102 Rachel @ Eat, Learn, Discover! March 14, 2012 at 7:24 pm

i totally had that gum addiction thing – for the same reasons. it got to the point where I was going through at least a pack a day (ha) and my jaw started aching all the time. Plus, I was spending WAY too much money on it. This was sort of around the time i also realized I was really not eating enough, so I went cold turkey. it was hard to adjust too, but it was the right way to do it for me – if I have any gum now, I just want more and more, so I stay away.

Like any habit, you can kick it if and when you want to – but bad habits are not going to kill you in the meantime, of course.
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103 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:39 pm

Very impressive Rachel- that you were able to quit and also understood that you needed to!


104 Abby @ Abz 'n' Oats March 14, 2012 at 7:32 pm

Have you ever tried subbing stevia for the artificial sweeteners? That’s what I do! I can totally relate to the gum habit, nut butter habit, and having to end the day with something sweet. As for the snacking instead of a meal and then having it anyways–I feel like I usually have the meal and then end up endlessly snacking on the things I wanted instead of the meal.
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105 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:38 pm

I have not tried it yet, but a few people including your lovely self have been suggesting it, so i should give it a go!


106 Becca @ Blueberry Smiles March 14, 2012 at 7:48 pm

Oh my goodness, that Earth Balance spread looks AMAZING!!! I hope they have it at my whole foods


107 Brittany @ GOtheXtraMile March 14, 2012 at 8:23 pm

We are so twins with the klutziness haha!
OMG, I used to be addicted to gum. Like literally, addicted. I would go through a 3 pack in one week. Right around lent, even though I’ve never gave anything up before, I told myself no more gum. I am still going on strong and I feel so much better!
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108 tessa8m March 14, 2012 at 8:37 pm

Wow I am impressed Brittany! I really don’t think I could do that, power to you deary :)


109 Sally Anne @ PaleoRunnerGirl March 14, 2012 at 8:31 pm

I totally went home for my senior spring break and it was WONDERFUL! I hope you have an amazing and relaxing spring break! (I always felt like the crazy beer-fueled spring breaks were overrated!).

I used to be all about artificial sweeteners. I used to make “kettle corn” with about 5 packets of splenda in a 100 cal pack—um, probably not the most healthy snack idea! However, with my crazy stomach the artificial sweeteners drive it NUTS so I rarely use them now.

I share your gum habit and it is an addiction I will never give up. I LOVE gum. I hate having a bad taste in my mouth so it solves that problem every time!

P.S. That almond butter looks AMAZING!!!
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110 Simply Life March 14, 2012 at 8:47 pm

oooh I’ll have to try that pb + coconut spread!
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111 Emily @ Perfection Isn't Happy March 14, 2012 at 8:59 pm

I stayed home for all of my spring breaks during college and it was perfect. Don’t let other people bother you, I used to get those comments too :).


112 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:19 am

Thank you Emily, I do need that reminder sometimes :)


113 Nikki March 14, 2012 at 9:08 pm

I read outside for like 2 hours today! It was phenomenal! Also, I know exactly what you mean about the whole nut butter thing. I completely lack control with it. It’s like I tell myself to stop but I just can’t!
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114 Alexandra March 14, 2012 at 10:02 pm

I do the EXACT same thing with the nut butter! I’m even worse when it comes to yogurt, ugh. I thought I was the only one… and I also get that out of control feeling :$
I’m trying to tell myself to just get out a bowl and eat the food normally instead of from the container, but then it feels like a real “snack” or “meal”. I have to kick that habit…
Best thing i ate all week: mint irish cream + chocolate fro-yo! it was wild.


115 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:21 am

Hmm now that i think about it, that happens with yogurt too! Well it depends on the size of the container, but yes!


116 Julia March 14, 2012 at 11:36 pm

Oh my gosh, I can totally relate to a lot of your habits…
biggest one: gum addiction! i’m horrible about it… like i chew upwards of almost 2 packs a day on a bad day… i’m constantly chewing it and putting in new pieces, and it totally makes me bloated by the end of the day, but I absolutely can’t give it up, it’s so hard!
I wanted to ask you how you were able to cut down on it so much? I feel like I eat enough where I’m not necessarily chewing it to curb hunger, but I just crave the flavor?
I used to be terrible about artificial sweeteners and diet soda, but I’ve gotten a lot better. I only use a half a pack of stevia on my cereal in the morning, but no other ones. I also rarely drink diet drinks, except when I am drinking (alcohol). but i totally understand how hard it is to stop with those because they make you crave sweets even more!

and that brings me to another habit, which is always needing something sweet after lunch/dinner! I usually snack on a few chocolate chips or yogurt raisins, which I know isn’t so bad, but it’s just the habit/need that’s annoying, and i know you understand.

the almond butter sounds soo delicious. I’m literally obsessed with almond butter (as of this week because I just tried it for the first time!) It is amazing on a Van’s whole wheat waffle!

Finally, something delicious I ate in the past few days was homemade pizza! whole wheat crust with homemade tomato sauce, mozerella cheese, sauteed mushrooms and onions, and ham! it was on point!


117 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:19 am

HI Julia!
It was QUITE HARD to cut down on the gum chewing…but while I could never go cold turkey with gum. I realized I could at least make the effort to slow down. I just tried to make each piece last longer by concentrating onto the flavor and then when I did get rid of it, I would sit with the uncomfortable feeling of needing another piece. The urge would go away after a few minutes!
I do of course understand about the chocolate chips business.. it’s the feeling of relying on such a habit which is annoying!
That homemade pizza sounds glorious :)


118 Emily March 15, 2012 at 1:11 am

Girl, we ALL have habits that we aren’t necessarily proud of. No one is perfect. Don’t let these little things stress you out. If you’re happy and continuously making progress (which you are!) then you’re doing just fine. (:
Everything looks delicious, by the way! I’m dying to get my hands on that coconut-peanut spread…Oh my goodness. I may have to make a trip to Whole Foods tomorrow to see if they have it!
Enjoy the rest of your week. <3
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119 head brace March 15, 2012 at 5:27 am

I agreed with Emily. Thank You!
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120 tessa8m March 15, 2012 at 12:06 pm

Thank you both!


121 thehealthyapron March 15, 2012 at 9:28 am

First of all, you’ve got a lot of habits in this post that you want to break. My best suggestion is to take it one habit at a time and stop being hard on yourself. The very first habit I would work on is the artificial sweeteners. I believe that this is the most harmful to your health and therefore should be addressed first. Take it from a former artificial sweetener queen! I dumped them just over a year ago and let me tell you…you CANNOT go back. I taste artificially sweetened stuff now and it’s SO fake tasting. Incredible. It also made me MORE conscious about REAL added sugars. I now eat plain full fat yogurts, never drink diet soda and opt for tea or water instead, and if I’m going to have sugar I just go for the real thing and find myself MORE satisfied on less. I find myself making even healthier choices since ditching the artificial chemicals. My body has thanked me in more ways than one! YOurs will too!
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122 Allie March 15, 2012 at 10:32 am

I once spent a spring break touring New England sheep cheese farms with my uncle and parents. And it was awesome. Way better (and cheaper!) than a “wild” spring break. So yeah, there’s a time to hang out with friends, and there’s a time to enjoy some family-based relaxation. And I always have to sneak back into the PB jar, too. And I can’t decide if I do or don’t want to find that coconut PB–it sounds TOO good, haha, and the last thing I need is another *butter obsession. PB and SSB is plenty for now :)
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123 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:16 am

That does sound like a lovely spring break! Thank you for the reassurance Allie :D


124 Kat @ a dash of fairydust March 15, 2012 at 11:04 am

I can relate SO WELL to everything you mentioned above, Tessa! I just wrote a similar post about my bad habits,it’s amazing how much we have in common…
P.S.: I really want to try that nut butter,but as always,I can’t – it’s not sold in Germany. :(
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125 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:14 am

It really is crazy how much we have in common! I will have to check out your post on them too!


126 Ann marie Leising March 15, 2012 at 12:28 pm

Have you tried the new Coffeemate Natural Bliss creamer? AMAZING flavor and they are all natural (no artificial sweetners) just milk, cream, sugar, and “natural flavor”. They are not too high in the calorie department either!


127 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:10 am

I have not even heard of that but I am intrigued!! Thank you for the suggestion Ann :D


128 Calorie Control Council March 15, 2012 at 1:09 pm

Hi, I wanted to clarify on a few of the comments here. Truvia is made from stevia, yes, but no one stevia sweetener is not more natural than other brands. The term stevia typically refers to a crude preparation (powder or liquid) of dried stevia leaves. It may contain a mixture of many substances, only some of which are sweet. Steviol glycosides can be isolated and purified from the leaves of the stevia plant. Some stevia based sweeteners contain other sweetness-contributing ingredients and some, such as Stevia Extract in the Raw are considered more “pure”.

And on another note, the American Dental Association actually recommends low-calorie sweeteners use –as they do not promote tooth decay. Which is why they’re commonly used in toothpaste, chewing gum and mouthwash.


129 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:09 am

Thank you for clarifying this up!! I have been a bit confused to be honest, so this is helpful :)


130 Chelsea @ Chelsea Runs March 15, 2012 at 1:36 pm

I’m also a serial (cereal) nibbler and sometimes go back to the almond butter jar like a madwoman. But it’s possible to change! I’ve recently started forcing myself to only eat nut butter ON food, which lessens it’s hold on me.. I agree that it’s an unfavorable habit.. Not necessarily bad, okay to do once in a while, but it’s the compulsive part that’s notsogood. Great post, a lot of stuff to think about! The energy bar looks nommy!
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131 tessa8m March 16, 2012 at 9:09 am

Hmm that is an interesting idea… on something as opposed to directly from a spoon! And yes exactly, it’s the compulsive thign I have an issue with


132 Paulina (One Smile Ahead) March 15, 2012 at 9:21 pm

I used to be such a gum addict! Honestly I don’t know how I broke the habit. I just stopped buying it all together. I haven’t had any in longer than I can remember, but I used to get irritated if my pack was running low :D As for the artificial sweeteners, yup, I used to have those too. How do you feel about stevia though? It’s a totally natural sweetener, but it doesn’t contain any of those negative effects sugar can bring. I personally don’t use it in my coffee/tea because I drink it as it is, but I love sweetening other things with it :] A little goes a really long way!
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133 Lily March 15, 2012 at 10:59 pm

I love how honest you are with yourself…that can be super hard to do sometimes!
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134 Lena @Fit on the Rocks March 16, 2012 at 12:33 am

That coconut peanut spread sounds amazing!!! Oh, and no hating on the nice weather comments. I’ve been saying it over and over again for the past week.
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135 lindsay March 16, 2012 at 8:13 am

it’s hard to realize what we need to let go of to move on. I agree. Those habits either make you or break you, ya know? I am working on the gum thing too friend.
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136 Corrie Anne March 16, 2012 at 1:31 pm

I feel you on the habits.. working on breaking my Diet Coke habit!!!!!!
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137 Maria @ Beautiful Busy Bee March 17, 2012 at 10:40 am

Mmm the coconut PB looks really good. I too always end the day with something sweet. My favorite is a mix of almonds, dried cherries, and semisweet chocolate chips. Have a fun Spring Break! :)
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138 Eleanor@eatinglikeahorse March 17, 2012 at 4:59 pm

I’ve got lots of habits like this too – I have to end the day with something sweet and have to have pudding after every meal, even if it’s only a yoghurt… both serious unbreakable habits! I also do the returning-to-the-jar thing with nut butter… a lot :-)
Glad you’ve been feeling so good and have a brilliant break!
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139 Sophie @ Love Live & Learn March 18, 2012 at 8:11 am

I look forward to your WIAW posts because they are always really interesting and informative, I so admire the way you continue to push for recovery and you are so determined to raise awareness! You are a wonderful person my lovely :-)

I have lots of quite destructive habits and lately, with the stress of my condition which is making me a bit of an emotional wreck, all of my negative thoughts about my body are resurfacing particularly strongly :-( Can’t say I’m finding it easy, I’m trying to just get through it and avoid mirrors!

P.s. that popcorn looks amazing!
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140 Tara March 18, 2012 at 10:21 am

I have a lot of these habits too. I wouldn’t call all of them bad necessarily, but the bad thing is how uncomfortable I feel with them. It’s okay to snack instead of eat meals, but I’m having trouble accepting that. I do it and I’m left with this awful feeling so I have to try and fix it by eating a meal, which then leaves me uncomfortable physically! It’s a vicious cycle and it drives me crazy because it’s all in my head.
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141 Kathleen @ KatsHealthCorner March 31, 2012 at 3:44 pm

I find that I do the same thing with my nut butter (peanut butter particularly). I always go back and get another scoop (or just use my 1/8 tsp measure and have many scoops. It’s just something I do.
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