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Hello Hello There and happy Sunday!

I have enjoyed a fairly low-key weekend: yesterday my brother Russell and his wife Christine came up for the day to visit but other than that, I have done a whole lot of nathin. This is both a good and bad thing as I certainly am exhausted by the end of the week and need time to sit around being as unproductive as possible… but then there is that whole I should be pushing myself out of my comfort zone thing. I have not been as social as I suppose I “should” be lately and I blame the combination of school slowly breaking down my soul, laziness, and my own thoughts/mind getting in my own way.

Choosing to isolate myself, stay in, and not being too social is something I have talked about many times over, yet it’s a topic I feel deserves more attention. I moan and bitch about a lack of friends, invitations and places to go to, but then I decline the ones I get, or make up some kind of excuse in order to stay in. I am not saying this happens all of the time, but definitely more often than it ought to.

HOWEVER, this is a topic for another day! It is Sunday after all and since I have done ZERO homework for the last two days, it’s time to devote my brain capacity toward everything and all that has to do with nursing. I did want to get a post out today though, a quiz/survey type because I actually enjoy filling these out! Once it’s all done and published, it’s time to kick my patooty into school mode.

This “current” quiz, is one I saw on both Amanda’s and Heather’s blog and have been saving it for a rainy day (which it is in fact down pouring here today) and am eager to fill it out, so let’s get to it!

Current Book: I finished The Passage and LOVED IT! Definitely one of those you-cannot-put-down-until-it’s-done books. Thank the lawddd there is a sequel which I plan to get to in time. On that note, I quickly started a completely different book following The Passage,

Watership Down is a classic heroic fantasy novel, written by English author Richard Adams, published by Rex Collings Ltd of London in 1972. Set in south-central England, the story features a small group of rabbits. Although they live in their natural environment, they are anthropomorphised, possessing their own culture, language (Lapine), proverbs, poetry, and mythology. Evoking epic themes, the novel is the Aeneid of the rabbits as they escape the destruction of their warren and seek a place to establish a new home, encountering perils and temptations along the way.

This is a book I consider a classic, a must-read at some point in my life, so why not now? I’ll let you know what I think in time!

Current Music: Although I do prefer audio books, music does occasionally make it’s way into my life, especially during workouts when I need a faster pace to get going! I am slightly embarrassed to admit this, but I have been finding my Pitbull Pandora station to be pretty dang awesome as of late… gahh there I said it! But yes, I have loved basically every song that comes on, ones from the past mixed in there as well.

Current Guilty Pleasure: Laying with my cat in bed well after I should have already forced my body from my oh-so-comfortable feather mattress and down blankets.

Current Nail Color:  Ehh I’ve got nothing for this one, we’re not allowed to wear any sort of nail polish at our clinicals! When I do pain my nails though, a light pink is usually the color I go with… I chip my nails do darn easily so when that happens with that color, it’s not as obvious!

Current Drink: I continue to be the worst ever with drink regular old water. I knowwww the importance of staying hydrated (and sadly diet coke and ice coffee are not going to cut it) yet I find myself wanting anything but water. So in order to counteract this, I am going to try seltzer water for a while. I enjoy it so much more than regular ole H2O and so far so good… oh and Black Cherry and Pomegranate are my jam.

Current Food:Hearty, piping hot stews and soups! Can’t say I am being too original on this one but it’s really all I want for lunch or dinner when I am freezing my bum off for basically the entire day. Sometimes, winter=poop.

Current Favorite Show: Downton Abbey (season 3) was my current favorite show as of a week ago… but alas the season just ended and boy did it go out with a bang! Although I am rather sad, there is another show coming out real soon that will efficiently fill that missing void,

GAME OF THRONES. Get.PUMPED.

Current Wish List: Blahh too many items that I want, don’t really need though, and which my lack of money poses a major issue to. First few products/stuff that come to mind- new running shoes (preferably Asics Kayano 18), a deep tissue massage 1x per week (in my dreams!), a new laptop (mine seems to be slowly but surely sh*tting the bed), and errr the ability to figure out the gosh-darn nursing exams and not have them make me feel like a stupido!

Current Needs: More time please. Also endless funds- I wouldn’t say it’s too much to ask

Current Triumphs: I am going on day four of zero exercising... except walks and lots of stretching… neither of which I would count. Enough is enough already, my legs have NOT been feeling better and if anything worse. Constantly tight, feeling as if there is a lack of blood circulating through them (as if they need more oxygen, does that make any sense?!), I get tired walking upstairs, the strain on my legs legitimately hurts. WTFFFFFFF. All of these last few months I have continued to moan and groan about this everlasting issue yet have done little for it. Yes I have eased my workouts, taken more rest days, eaten/drank more, and so on, but there is still room for improvement and I NEED to face the fact that more REST is essential.

Taking a week+ off of working out when I have been putting my body through hell and back for years now, is non-negotiable.

Current Bane of My Existence: This “current” goes along nicely with what I just wrote about. Not exercising is a mental challenge to say the least. Exercising and the “need” I feel to have my body moving at all times, is a major part of my disordered eating business. In a way exercising and running saved me from getting really bad because I always ate enough to fuel the workouts, or at least partially so. But alas, our bodies can only take so much and I have broken it down in countless ways to a point where one or two rest days is NOT going to cut it.

I am biting the bullet, taking the time off and acknowledging how much anxiety I currently feel, how much discomfort, antsy-ness, stress… but I also must remember that this is what I so NEED if I ever want to get back to the powerful runner I used to be. This unrelenting fatigue is just so strange to me that it has lasted this long.. and although I sometimes believe there could be something else going on, it might actually come down to the uncomfortable reality that I have drove my body into the ground.

Current Celebrity Crush: I don’t have a particular “celeb crush” but I have been in love with Leonardo Dicaprio basically since the day I learned what a boy was. But that’s different because again, we’re in love. <– major wink face right there.

Current Indulgence: More times during the week than I care to admit, I eat whip cream straight out of the can… yep true story right there. Darn my grocery store for continuing to have sales on such a delicious, terrible-for-you but good-for-your-soul product!

Current Blessing: Honestly, there are just too many to name and thinking about this makes me realize how my “issues” really and truly are not so bad in the grand scheme of things.

Current Slang: Totes Magotes. I say this way too much.

Current Outfit: On a rainy Sunday morning I accept nothing else than PAJAMAS! Ones from Marshall’s if you are wondering

Current Excitement: Recently I helped out a crew of students from a nearby college with a documentary they are doing related to all aspects of food- health, organic items, nutrition and most importantly (for me) eating disorders. I have way more to talk about on this though, so stay tuned for later on when the video comes out and I can share it with you all!

Current Mood: Hungry, time for lunch!

Current Link: http://healthnuttxo.com/. This website is fantastic for reviews on “healthy” products and other food ones out there! I have only browse through a few of the entries but will be returning there when I have more time. I love sites like this where I can get an honest review of something I am debating to buy or wanted to hear the opinions of someone else.

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Boo now the fun is over, no excuses for me to get to work!

-What is your current:

• Excitement?
• Bane of existence?
• Guilty Pleasure?
• Or any of the other ones you want to answer! Share any and all

Enjoy the rest of your Sunday friends!

Tagged as: anxiety, Eating Disorder Recovery, embarcing recovery, Importance of Rest Days, products i love, Running, Weight Gain Fears